I had to figure everything out about shamanism for myself. I think a huge key of it is that in my original culture I did not have the cultural conditioning to have an ego. When people are ego-centred, they are a bit dead, and in an ego-centred culture, most people are not as spiritually well or spiritually alive as they would like to be. So I was fresh meat for these kinds of vampires all my adult life. I even tried to adjust to their ego-centred culture, but I coudln’t quite believe in it, so went back to my original roots, only more deeply.