More on the Same Topic | Clarissa’s Blog

More on the Same Topic | Clarissa’s Blog

And to add a bit more, the only way I could truly manage to overcome my state of being spell bound by masculine awesomeness was to create my own awesomeness.  I mean I had to create something that was so intense that it would mesmerize me differently, not in relation to others and their achievements, but in relation to myself.  There was a stage in my life when I exposed myself to a lot of violent imagery to strengthen will will.  That actually worked, I think, although facing death and violence is a costly way to achieve one’s self-liberation.  Actually there were certainly no other remedies apart from home grown ones at my disposal.  I’d tried absolutely everything else, especially talking.

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