What Psychoanalysis, Culture And Society Mean To Me Layton L, – Mens Sana Monogr

What Psychoanalysis, Culture And Society Mean To Me Layton L, – Mens Sana Monogr

What is described below, about the primal horde versus the indulgent father, could almost be the difference between contemporary first world modernism and the colonial regimes (which represent the father).

Thus we are all more equalitarian now — but indubitably more repressive and repressed.

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In Totem and Taboo (1913,1955) , Moses and Monotheism (1939) , Group Psychology and the Analysis of the Ego (1922; 1959), he put forth his primal horde theory, in which the sons’ rage at the primal father’s freedom to exercise his sexual and aggressive instincts without restraint leads them to murder the father. The ensuing sense of guilt ushers in a more egalitarian, but at the same time a far more repressed version of society, in which no one is allowed to enact the primal father’s instinctual freedom. In this model, neurotic conflicts are primary in determining the form of a society, whereas in the model described earlier, society is the prime cause of neurotic conflicts.

Cosmic black humour

Dealing in life and death for a miserly fifty dollars a month. It was the sheer hypocrisy of the relatives which rankled in Joe’s mind. In the fridge. They came in, with their hats off, their faces set in a defiantly dignified look. And Joe would open the drawer and turn the sheet down, revealing the ugly details of death. He had lost his temper only once when a widow had dragged in an eleven-year-old boy who was screaming: “I don’t want to see him, mama!”

But she had grabbed his head and forced him to see the “last of your father” and the boy had looked, and looked, all the noise and protest blown out of him by the sight of the terribly mangled father.

“You are killing him too, ” Joe said pointing at the boy.

But the woman gave him a scornful withering glance and Joe retreated behind his mortuary attendant’s mask.

“It’s all a cynical joke, Max,” Joe said.

And he stood up to get another plastic mug of beer. He wanted to get sickeningly drunk. Max stopped him and gave him more money.

“Get two big ones,” Max said.

from Marechera’s “When rainwords spit fire”, 143, 144.

In the past I had no opinions on anything. It was only adults who had opinions on this or that. Having an opinion didn’t give you any advantages. You couldn’t run around or plot and plan another adventure just because you had opinions about it. When an adult used to challenge me about my opinions I used to go, “Um…” and then give the opinion I thought that the respective adult wanted to hear. If I got the answer right then maybe the adult would stop bothering me. Then I could run around again, and explore the environment, like I’d been wanting to. There was so much to explore. There were bugs and trees and different kinds of trails leading here or there, that I could follow on my bike.

Humour in different cultural contexts

Due to the greater weight of the machine of industry (and indeed, the post-industrial machine of cultural dominance and submission) in the advanced world, humour has taken on a different sense of value. Rarely is it used to effectively critique the dominant social orders. Perhaps rather, it is a refuge, a means for diffusing one’s underlying feelings of antagonism, away from the force of retributive effect of entrenched social power. [Cf. Nietzsche about the force of guilt increasing at the power of the tribe increases -- Genealogy of Morals.]

In Africa, at least in terms of my own experiences of it, the spirit of humour is far lighter. Most likely this is because the weight of industry has not had its solidifying effect of reinforcing the intensity of superego, along with superego’s injunction to not make fun of powers over you, no matter what. So humour held its own, as a form of pacifying the tension between dominant authorities and one’s own personal values. In my school life in Zimbabwe, the psychological tension maintained between obeying the authorities and listening to one’s own impulses — which were always inclined to humorously mock the propriety of the established authorities — was experienced by me and no doubt many others as providing an experience both tender and endlessly delightful.

When I read Marechera, I often read the same subtle pause for gasp and intake of air before the humour against the appropriate authority is about to take place. You can almost hear the rotars of the mind turning over in the form of, “Do I dare say this?” and then, almost without a second’s hesitation, the confirming answer: “Yes, indeed, I will!”

By the age of 14, I knew that colonialism’s powers were anything but consolidated — at least where I was, in the classroom. Humour was the constant means of undermining the pomposity of various regimes and authorites that would rule over us, if only they knew how.

When I read Marechera, I see the humour put to the same use, again and again. Whereas others (of a more supergo-weighted position) may read the parts in The House of Hunger where the priest is being pelted with sadza (after trying to preach Christianity to a black classroom) as an appropriate — and rightfully moral comeuppance for his attempt to impose colonialism on a black classroom — I read the whole event more in light of a humorous détournement of priestly aspirations. “The priest, with his strict sharp lines of morality and race is forced to confront the amorphous qualities of the African staple, sadza?” Great! In fact, not much could be more dramatically more perfect as an undoing of the contrived commanding imposition of the priest. Score one to the classroom, zero to the priest!

Because I understand the way that Zimbabwean humour works to deflate pomposity — or even, indeed, against an alien threat that threatened to usurp one’s power to direct one’s ways as one might choose to — I do not see the same moral critique as those invested in a more moral view of culture must do.

Perhaps Marechera’s earlier text — the one called The House of Hunger, that was awarded the Guardian prize — was mistaken for being more of a conventional moral critique than it in fact was. It’s not that it lacked guts — but naive humour is used as a political critique probably far more than the average Western critic can imagine.

The stamp of approval to the early work was probably taken by Marechera as being a stamp of approval regarding his general outlook and style –whereas it is uncertain that the full scope of the humour entailed in his general outlook and style was ever known.

The weight of morality in Western Culture [Op. Cit. Nietzsche] cautions us not to offend against our superiors and our betters, whereas the relative light-weight of culture in Rhodesia and Zimbabwe guaranteed that humour would nearly always be a recourse, whenever the actual force of power and one’s own impulses were found to be odds.

Western culture, feeling the weight of superego, reads the impulse of humour towards the threat of an authoritarian individual to be too impetuous, mischievous — or probably even a sign of mental illness. That is why born Westerners prefer to read a form or moral discourse into Marechera’s writings, in stead of the much more politically sharp — and indeed, more humourous discourse — that Marechera had actually put in place.

Perhaps this analysis of different cultural outlooks goes some way to explaining the perception of Marechera’s apparent decline into a form of mental illness. My readings — even of his later works — reveal no trace of it. Yet what is revealed to me through the commentary is a gradual sense of Marechera’s intellectual alienation.

Could it be possible that some of the Western applause for The House of Hunger had been based on a misunderstanding — that Marechera was adopting a more precise moral perspective (rather than the political and preposterously humorous perspective that was part of his calling card)?

It has been misunderstood how Marechera was always more of a conditioned subject of his cultural upbringing than he was assumed to be — his adoption of intellectual airs whilst writing his first “novel” (The Black Insider) would have been as a result of his highly intellectual absorption of First Colonial Lessons: That Education is the definitively orchestrated means for the colonial subject to get ahead. But, whilst Marechera was fighting his concrete colonial battles, Western culture itself was on a much more abstract, moralistic, post-colonial crusade. Wasn ‘t there therefore an essential (and, moreover, possibly fatal) misunderstanding between Marechera and his would-be ideologically driven benefactors?

As I said — I find only scant evidence of Marechera’s “mental illness “, which was very much in relation to the amount of legal and illicit substances he consumed as well as the actual political opposition he faced. I do find evidence of an increasing social alienation and sense of despair as one manuscript after another was rejected for not commercially viable. The quality of the writing I have read — and indeed the tones and themes — do not seem more disjointed, but rather less so — more relaxed, contained, and more politically focused and concerted –as Marechera progresses through his life. Despite the sense of opposition and disappointment he faced, he seems to have largely kept it together — at least in terms of his own writing.

So the “mental illness” of Marechera may be to some large extent a projection of Western middle class premises and concerns:. “If we were living on the street, we must surely have gone mad by now, given the immeasurable demands of our own superegos.” In Marechera’s case,  his upbringing was different from those born in the West — and therefore the nature of the demands of his superego and indeed his propensity to madness as an outcome of his relationship with superego has been overblown.

One hesitates to quote Uncle Remus, because one realises that the force of Western suerego is exceptionally strong, making it less than funny to be politically incorrect — but one should not underestimate the importance of Marechera’s roots in shaping him and his eventual desire to live it out on the streets:

“I was bred and born in the briar patch, Brer Fox,” he called. “Born and bred.”

A lifetime of washing walls

Tony doesn’t want to see what is really out there. He wants to be a writer but he has to submit to his boss. Over that matter he has no control. Not if he wants to live a normal and conventional life in the suburbs. The money for that life has to come from somewhere.

Jane is cooking eggs. The walls around her have lascivious desires toward her. The conventional life in the suburbs is under threat from the walls themselves

Jane is the conventional housewife cooking breakfast. Tony is the conventional suburban husband, enhancing his outward masculinity by doing push-ups and running on the spot.

He needs to exercise to have the muscles to wash the walls. He likes
running on the spot. It somehow represents the purpose of life. It is
somehow the answer to the overwhelming riddle looming in each individual’s life. Running on one single spot.

But Tony’s knowledge of the nature of the walls around him cannot be repressed for long. A single incident that reminds him of his role as a submissive in relation to his boss, and Tony suddenly sees the walls for what they are. They are covered in blood, and he needs to wash them. The mocking narrative voice continues, taking its swipe against the justifications for Tony’s ideology of conformist asceticism:

The walls are his lifetime’s epic. His Iliad. His Paradise Lost. His Age of Reason. It is a superhuman task, trying to wash away all the blood. But it is only the insurmountable that brings out of us our monumental origin. Was that his quest? His dream. To exorcise out of his short plump body the rippling incredible Power…

So yer thinking yer moral, boy?

Standards of objective justice are not unknown to humankind, even under capitalism (though also a little apart from it). In the extremely brutal sport known as boxing, such standards prevail, ironically enough –when they do not prevail nearly as much under the auspices of liberalistic relativism.
In boxing, for instance, it would be scandalous if the two opponents were not relatively well matched. You do not have flyweights fighting with heavyweights. The amount of experience both boxers have ought to be comparative in order to make the fight worthwhile. If levels of experience are vastly different, then there must be some other compensatory factor — like youth and greater reach — that can serve to equalise the odds. This is all on the principle of supplying decent entertainment — a mercenary value in itself, but nonetheless one that has been harness nobler values to its ends.
Yet in the world of supposedly more genteel consumerism, it is every man and his dog for himself. The moral relativism that this engenders is extremely violent. It is 111 times more violent than boxing or than anything previously imagined. Boxing, with its rules and regulations, with its referees, and with the possibility of throwing in the towel, is nothing compared to the violence of capitalism and its moral relativisms.
There is no escape from capitalism, and it pits the weakest and least-trained individuals against gigantic and hardened pros. There is no sense of the injustice of this, that this fight and its outcomes were rigged from the start and that the only entertainment this provides is to those very craven and very bloodthirsty to begin with. And yet those attuned to the norms of market consumerism are inclined to criticise the “brutality” of boxing?
Those of a liberal capitalist persuasion have no right to criticise anyone else’s brutality without first understanding a little more (than they do) about themselves.

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The grassy patch (of my youth)

Marechera — self consciously grounded in his own terror as the defining essense of himself.

Myself — grounded in my own sense of whatever is growing rampantly –whatever protects my by its wildness.

Australian culture — stripping me bare, by denying me what is wild on principle. Invoking my antipathy, my shudders at the prospect of being reduced to an empty shell of myself.

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A totem is what we clothe ourselves with, ultimately. It may seem to be outside of us, but it is in its essence an internal magnetic force which enables us to arrange the psychic fragments of ourselves into an orderly form to our best advantage in the sense of vigour and aliveness.

Your meat, my poison.

But for Marechera and I — our totems are more similar, and his is easily understandable to me. With my wildness, I can understand the lure of terror as the basis for a self-justificatory sort of orientation towards the world. (One might almost call it “knowledge”, since it is a way of looking, feeling, thinking that satisfies the inner core of one’s own being.)



Fear is no small thing under the microscope. Fear is the flesh, the gorgeous dress my skeleton wears. p 250
–’Thoughts of a rusty nail
(recently hit on the head) ‘

And so I return to the grassy patch, just up from a light rise, aligned not too far from the chicken hatch, and in the shelter of the mulberry tree. A capaciously growing patch of jade and cool tranquility, which you could plomp yourself in, and have the tender grassy flickers come up to beyond your thighs, dogs and children likewise cooling themselves in this vagrant patch.

And we were supposed to shake our heads disparagingly at it — but I knew that it was all a game, this attitude, for it was a nest for dogs and children, cooling me impossibly on a warm and sunlit day. And though we said, “we must cut that some day as it’s unslightly, in the way we said it we were reassuring ourselves that such a gorgeous patch of grass should never be cut, not ever, although it would be right in honour of the civilisation that spawned us. We were just warding off its spirit by asserting the propriety of keeping things more smoothly in their proper way. No blind spot acknowledged is every a blindspot, so “I know I’m sinning” means the sinning is negated: This is how is was supposed to work.

And then, one day, I feigned against the urgings of the spirit of civilisation, “This grass here should be cut some day! It’s grown so tall!”

It was an acknowledgement of the tallness, the impossible tallness, capacious, rampant and free. It had been a miracle — but one to which a more direct compliment would have drawn the fire of the spirit of orderly normality. It seemed clear that one could only compliment such a miracle in the most indirect way. One should pretend to be its enemy whilst encouraging its rampant growth — much as the teachers at school pretended to discipline us whilst encouraging the petulance of our emerging spirits.

And so I went inside, resplendent with the feeling of having payed the patch its greatest compliment. It was a hot day.

There I rested, on my bed, enjoying the sense that I was changing and becoming more mature — I knew how to pay the proper compliment to things now. All was getting righter with the world.

And outside was Bennit, hedgeclippers in hand — and when I woke, the grassy mound was gone!

I was devastated. “What… happened to it?” I had asked in a tremulous voice.

“I told Bennit to get rid of it. It’d been there long enough,” my mother answered in a masterful tone.

An internal shriek of denial, at not believing what I see: “No!”

I ran back inside, holding back the tears. It couldn’t have been. The grass had only served a positive purpose — cooling dogs and children alike. Who could have been an enemy of this patch of grass? Who could have thought to erase it, without meaning?!

I lay on the bed and cried and cried. What I had cherished so much was now gone — and in my heart of hearts I knew it was forever.
Nooooh!

the black insider — theme

What if you can no longer act “according to the temperature of the blood”?

What if you found that what you thought was the most real about you was just a series of socially conditioned and superimposed “attitudes”?

It would seem as if your organic self was being eaten by another organism. Let us call that other, parasitical organism/bacteria “Culture”. It is grafted into your head when you begin to read and write, and henceforth the bacteria eats you alive. You want more “Culture” and you are earnestly in search of it. At the same time, the more of it you get, the less you can relate to others according to “the temperature of the blood”.

What can you do?? Once you feel that you have been turned into nothing but an empty shell — a preponderance of “attitudes”, you have nothing to lose any more. You can grab a weapon and start to shoot, for you have been pushed to an existentially extreme position that requires you to take your life in your hands, a zombie against further zombification of society as a whole.

You shoot and you die — and thus you empty yourself to the point that there are no more attitudes.

terror, the totem of truth

What is terror as a totem of truth other than the undoing of totemism as a reassuring rallying point for nations and tribes?

The mood that pervades the writings of Marechera is often and usually that of the daemonic. Often and usually it is Puck.

To read the author in this way is to grasp his social criticisms, his humour and the complexity of his world view. I wonder — is it possible that these are not being grasped? For those to whom terror is not a rallying point for truth, what kind of Marechera do they encounter? From the position of a more conventional totemism, how does Marechera appear?

He may appear to be saying very little — but I do not know this. Hypothetically, he would be measured more by what he is not, rather than by what he is.

But as for finding in terror the actual totem of truth? — This has to be for those who are culturally dispossessed in some way.

embracing an insane sanity.

JANE {softly}: It’s terrifying, Henry. It made me understand exactly how a mercenary becomes what he is…If he is to survive, an alien of the people must become absolutely mercenary.

HENRY {drawing on his cigarette}: And the gain?

JANE {laughing bitterly}: The terrible beauty of a desperate peace of mind. Accepting nothing, rejecting everything, but always the eye of the storm. The still centre of a cyclone.

HENRY: That comes close to Buddhism

JANE: Call is what you like, but it has the lethal potential of a split atom.

p 91 Alien to the People, Marechera.

Baboon

As I have decided to do all my chapters for my thesis in draft by the end of the year, with the intent of finishing everything before June next year, I wonder whether I will get my chance to go to Zimbabwe before my degree is up.

I missed the slim window of opportunity, earlier on, before the Australian travel advisory declared that one should reconsider one’s plans to travel. This level of warning means that the University would probably refuse to pay for my travels there, fearing for my safety (or, more accurately, fearing that my family members would sue them if something went awry. There is fat chance of this — my family would more likely wallow in apathy, perhaps only going to far as to mutter under their breaths that this was “God’s will”…..god…swill…)

Unless this culture changes, my voice will always be a little muffled for Zimbabweans, and the  echoes of their religious explanations lend to the substance of my life a mildly gothic illusion.

Oh me oh my.

The Oedipus complex and colonialism

Revisiting the Oedipus complex:
An incorrect way of reading Marechera is:

1. nihilistically — as a “postmodern” and as if he were merely rearranging ideas “on the surface”, somewhat dadaistically, and in order to amuse himself, whilst not criticising the established orders that he was actually intent on criticising.

Also, via the lens of Post-oedipal blindness.

2.   Since, according to Michael Mack’s Freud,  Kant’s  Categorical Imperative is “The Oedipus Complex”, one ought not to reads Marechera in a kind of subconscious tone of, “Yes, but all the moral answers are already entirely obvious to my abstract thinking mind.”  If one does so, your own Oedipus complex is blinding you to what the author has to say about social and psychological complexity.

In fact, more often than not, the points the author wants to make are naturalistic (about society and how we actually experience it without a divine law to mediate its effects) and empirical. “Blindness” is a feature of assuming one has already grasped everything about the world when there is still something more to grasp.

The “Oedipus complex” in terms of the author’s own autobiography and experiences may be reinterpreted (of course metaphorically, which is in terms of what I perceive the whole Freudian system of complexes to be — a huge metaphor about one’s relationship to power…) as a form of intellectual gigantism triggered in the genes and perpetuated by not knowing who one’s own parent really is. In terms of this, one is never satisfied by having “assimilated language”. One is already in doubt whether this language is not the true language, the most efficacious language, the language that will nurture and not mislead one, the language of a true progenitor and not of a spurious host, the language that is likely to last, and not be cast aside by more superior linguistic forms, the language that really is what-it-seems-to-be and not something other.

To introject the father’s law through language under these terms is not an easy matter. One may introject the law entailed in a number of languages — but who is it to guarantee that this is THE language? — the one guaranteed forever? The resolution of the Oedipus complex through the acceptance of castration is the gateway leading away from awareness and experience of personal impulses and away from the bliss of mystical enjoinment with the world, but into an excessive reliance on the pure potency of language itself.

This produces a cascading quality of experience where one finds more and more layers to the onion of identity.  The self is never to be found in a completed condition, but always somehow perpetually changes before one’s eyes. One keeps growing and growing as one assimilates new information about language and about its insinuations about realities concerning us that differ from our self perceptions. At the same time, one keeps shrinking and shrinking (as we find more in the language we had come to trust, which we had already assimilated and introjected as our own law),  turns out to be false. The self is thus constantly in the throes of change. One can never be satisfied with the result because one is never satisfied that truth has been furnished. (Hence the autobiographical quality of Marechera’s writing as a kind of self-inquisition regarding the matter of how much truth had settled into him at any one time.)

Any colonial child (for example, I, or Marechera) is the bastard child of an elusive father whose ideology would not stick around long enough for it to have become entirely entrenched. Colonialism is therefore an ideology which produces children with an identity on the move. We fail to  ’grow up’ in the sense of what’s expected, never becoming crystalised and firm and never-changing in the selves our fathers would have begotten. Those who mistake our personalities for those of plants or grass, that have established their identities through their acts and appearance once and forever more, will be variously, shocked and scandalized – but rarely disappointed. In Marechera’s terms, “we are changelings.”

my privileges — vast as they are!

I had after-school lessons in art (an experience truly mystical), the piano (absolutely terrifying), recorder playing lessons (neutral), athletics (threatening), swimming (frightening but somehow also sensual). I also had cooking and sewing lessons (cooking was great because we got to eat what we made, but sewing and why anyone would do it remained a mystery for me in a negative sense). I also had horseriding lessons, which I enjoyed, and horse maintenance lessons.

My gran painted in oils, so we had some of her stuff on the walls, as well as some of my batiques from school, some macrame I made at school, and some realistic plaster dogs heads that looked like our dogs. We had a lot of brass Zimbabwean art as well.

We had heaps of books — Early childhood ones I can remember were Enid Blyton, Ruyard Kipling, A. A. Milne, Anna Sewell, Robert Louis Stevenson, and suchlike.

We never stayed in hotels, and our old TV was a black and white one. Its picture used to roll, presumably when it got overheated, so you had to slap the box on the top to try to get the image to stabilise.

We went to museums and art galleries at school, but rarely with my parents — unless we were visiting south africa, or something. Then we would see the wildlike museum or the big hole of Kimberley’s diamond mine.

We used wood fires in winter, so there was no cost for heating. We flew on a commercial jet once, when we were looking to see if Britain might be a place to emigrate to.

My father taught at a technical college level. My mother didn’t complete her primary school teaching course.

Effectively I went to a private high school for the first three years of that. However it was in fact a government school, only limited to a social (but not economic) elite, through zoning of students from a whiter, more superior area of Zimbabwe.

I never went on any cruises, but I had my own room. I also had a horse. Some of my clothes were hand downs, but once, when we were leaving Zimbabwe, my parents had sold the house, and we had cash to spare.

Marechera’s philosophical thoughts

“Thought is more fatal than bilharzia. And if you want to write a book you cannot think unless your thoughts are contagious.” ( p 34)

“When I was a child I played childishly; when I became a man I put away the ghost of literary thought that stuffed me with attitudes in my student days. What is it, this vast room we call the sky; these endless miles of reality thickly knit with grit? The waiter must stretch his lips if he wants to get tips. We stand each to each like sides of rock once quarried mercilessly by blind Victorian adventurers who only sought the few gold veins in us. They have extracted the best part of our being and left us like this. I woke up long ago this morning with aches and pains in all the things I took for granted. This desperate tinder becomes youth. Even the death certificate is not quite like me, said Lazarus when he came out of the tomb. Things always happen in the worst possible way, however hard one tries to unbend them. I can never look a rational thought straight in the eyes. Hate me if you wish, but not too offensively. And there I was yesterday hammering the typewriter keys with a worldliness not of this world. Thoughts like claws must be sheathed. Something always happens to show us how blind we really are. This is not only stranger than we imagine but stranger than we can imagine. We cannot all afford the luxury of self-disgust but someone has to do the dirty work. That means — me. My hunger has stamina enough. My actions are always my fault though my thought would plead otherwise. Attitudes–attitudes. ( p 38)

“The enigmatic smile of the Mona Lisa is probably the best outward expression of the rank and terminal cancer deep inside her and her age. It’s as though some secret fungi, some impossible bacillus infects us through an incision in our mind and imagination with a fatal yearning for beauty, terror, horror, creativity. Certainly the common imagination portrays artists as consumptive, tubercular and generally sickly. Thomas Mann’s works seem exclusively to consider this worth exploring, not just in artists but also in musicians and other upper-caste progenitors of the sublime.” (p 94)

Marechera’s Inferno

Marechera’s perspective in The Black Insider is a cosmological. It is in a literary and philosophical sense naturalistic. That is to say that this is not a moral universe, but rather one in which human affairs are dwarfed by much more dangerous and spectacular things going on, on larger physical scales than that which pertains to human life.

Brains and a whole continent, too, can be are eroded by natural physical forces. The more energised human elements simply die sooner than the rest. There is no natural justice, nor even necessarily any human recognition of one another. Against this indifferent backdrop, timeless dramatical characters move their ways from situation to another. The past and the present, high culture and the lowest forms of culture mingle freely in this timeless zone, which is just a breath away from death.

Life is spread taut and thin. Dante’s inferno beckons.

Stars explode into the outer universe — as  do human beings.

The Alien Nation of Marechera’s mind

One can experience the writer honing his craft in The Black Insider. There is the realisation that too much of being “the writer”, or the talented intellectual will lead others to pour their beer over one. There is the need to finally balance the dialectic between enough information to cause the reader to think and enough of a story that will entertain. And yet the book still errs on the side of being intellectual.

The problem stated above is visited and revisited. We have the context of the writer looking from the “outside in” as one of those who is not part of the sincere hard-working folk but is a writer, and thus listed on the side of those who lie or steal and cannot be trusted. We have the writer on the “inside out”, locked inside his own head as a poet and intellectual because he does not wish to compete against others in a social darwinistic manner, in order to show his merit. How does one bridge the duality in order to communicate effectively as an artist? Is it even possible, or effective to assert that “outside in” is “inside out” as one of the characters does? Does the linguistic assertion thus really reduce the problem of communicating across a social divide — or doesn’t it remain concrete and real? (These questions are raised either tacitly or directly throughout the book.)

Which is the depth and which is the surface? — the question echoes through the book in a melancholic refrain. If this was a postmodern book, in theory the writer would be happy with ‘all surface’. Yet it is by coming to accept the idea that the “insiders” (shut away in an arts faculty as individuals suffering from an intellectual disease) are just “surface” which causes the author to take up arms against a descending military force from the outside. It is what forces him into an absolutist position, which ends in his own death and in the death of Helen (presumably “of Troy”) — who was all that the protagonist claims he had ever wanted.

So, the writing does not embrace a postmodernist position of accepting surface appearances as being all that there can really be, or ought to be. Rather there is a railing against “the Emperor’s New Clothes”, especially with regard to the moral failures of a pan-Africanist ideology and agenda and the fact that Marechera’s countrymen had received new cultural garb as a result of “the liberation”, but that this was an image, bestowed by the state from above, and had little to do with who people actually were.

The search throughout the book is for an authentic response to social and cultural alienation. The violence that the intellectuals would rather renounce — because they understand the damage war does — is ultimately something they feel compelled to embrace in self defence. This answer is emotionally cathartic, but not intellectually satisfying. Yet what this offers in its refusal to be intellectually satisfying is an honesty about the complexities of Africa’s problems (the continent is dealt with rather as a whole, although with special attention given to Zimbabwe-Rhodesia {1979-1980} — as the country’s most recently altered political form was called.)

Marechera’s writing in The Black Insider

It’s an earlier book than Black Sunlight, and therefore more naive in terms of thinking through the political implications of being black and outcast in a white world.

One gets the impression that Marechera is still trying to find a way to work within the establishment of a first world culture, in order to get ahead in his career. He writes without sociology — which is a lack that is quite obvious. He tries to explain the deteriorated condition of the black subject within British society as being the result of alienation caused by a plague of language and culture not one’s own. Marechera’s idea of language and culture is very akin to Richard Dawkins meme theory. One catches language and culture as a disease and also in particular ways — modes of cultural consumption as a determination of one’s social class. The right wing values as well as the force of political and economic necessity that underly the drive that black Zimbabweans have to to succeed in Britain during 1979-80 (and still, no doubt, that drives them currently even more so in that direction of proving they can “make it” abroad)also gives the writing a flair of social darwinism. That is, language and culture are seen to act as an affliction that compels one towards individualism and success whilst undermining the basis for social solidarity and therefore for real communication. The social darwinism depicted is of those at the bottom of the pile losing their cool with each other as they try to make it higher up within the system.

What is lacking, nonetheless, is a real sense on the author’s part that he and his fellow Zimbabwean exiles are indeed working within a system that is designed to keep them for the most part flailing at the bottom of it and with minimal supply of their needs. The anarchist’s critique that the meme is damaging to us is not the same as an understanding that inequality is systematic and deliberately so. This is missing from the author’s overall perspective.

Another aspect that betrays the real values of the author is the fact that this book — intended to fulfil the demands of Heinemann to produce a novel — is more like an academic treatise. It is full of remarkably witty aphorisms and arcane facts about biology and astronomy, which serve to demonstrate the writer’s learnedness. I don’t find this to be a stylistic problem, but it shows an emphasis which is commercially naive for a first book that presumes to be “a novel”.

No doubt, the first generation of blacks in the Rhodesian regime to be treated to a full and proper education had been informed somehow that education was the true equaliser between human beings. This had a partial truth to it — but not to the degree that Marechera evidentally took it to have. Marketing success usually follows from exploiting the force of the already existing ideologies. Therefore it is probable that, Heinemann, in its marketing wisdom was rather looking rather more for something that would have taken pride of place on a correct thinking liberal’s mantelpiece — something more akin to Uncle Tom’s Cabin, except that it would more specifically lampoon white colonialism whilst restoring the dignity and self esteem of the colonised blacks. In other words, one’s intellectual acumen or education was not the universal equaliser — rather, there was a need to demonstrate one’s political credentials in order for the writer to make literary headway.

This Marechera failed to do — and hence was called upon to write and rewrite the book four more times, with unsuccessful efforts. Two of the subsequent manuscripts appear to have been lost by Heinemann for all time. Black Sunlight — the fourth manuscript to be produced by Marechera as the requisite African novel — was reluctantly printed at last by Heinemann as a kind of market-experiment.

Read less as a novel, but more as being a thrilling kind of detailing of the phenomenological experience of being young, brilliant, and alienated in Britain, The Black Insider is a remarkable work, which shows the writer’s early sense of the alien kind of world he found in Britain. It is an inside-out look at the subjectivity of cultural alienation, and the feeling of it as a kind of organic disease which afflicts everybody in exile, only in different and unpredictable ways.

Back to training

Back to training, starting in sincerity tomorrow. It is never not a measure of balancing pain with pleasure. The body’s own defence mechanisms – to make you tired, to make you ache, to make your mind reel with the mental pain — cannot be totally ignored, without exposure to further threat. This is despite the master’s injunctions that the mind ought only to be treated as a rationalising machine, that seeks only to get off the hook of training hard and as ferociously as can be.

To treat the mind that way is to risk damage of a lasting sort — at least for us who are older, or are female, and who need to strategise in some way to assure our own wellbeing.

No changes on the financial front

Anyway, so once again I didn’t get any scholarship, although I was expecting that result this time. My theory, and I don’t mean it to sound supercillious, is that there is something fucked with this culture. Of course there is something fucked with most cultures — but sometimes, if you are a certain type of person, this fuckness benefits you. If you are the opposite sort of person, of course it has the opposite effect.

Had I remained in white Africa, the kind of societial fucked-upness would have benefitted me a lot. Of course as a female it would not have benefitted me as much as it might. Yet I would have benefitted — and surely at the expense of others.

In this wee bitty of a culture here, I am selected specifically not to benefit by the special things this culture has to offer. That is restricted to those who knew the ropes of the culture a helluva long time before I did, and also to those considered properly exotic. Of course a colonial is the exact opposite of exotic, but rather an embarrassment at the level of the subconcious — since most of the people who live here are also to some great degree or less, colonials themselves, and do not want to be perceived as such.

But there it is.

 

Query and possible solution

To what degree did Rhodesian culture get its force from suppressing “the feminine”?

Let me be clear: The feminine in this case is not to be equated with “women”, nor even is it to be equated with the tendencies that might be “womanly” in the experiential sense — that is, in the sense of women being experience their bodies. “The feminine” in this case is, rather, what the imagination says that women are like. It has nothing to do with what they actually are like; what they do or do not do.

Marechera seems to think that there was a basic hatred for women because of their sexuality. In one of his plays, he has the white father refer to his daughter as “a slut”. On the surface, this seems very extreme and propagandistic in a partisan of Marechera. Yet I have come to believe that Marechera captures the lurking psychological truth in his portrayal. The essence contained in much of Rhodesian manhood is of hatred of the projected “feminine”.

Identity politics: a sign of our pathological times

What is nice is not to be attacked by ideologists.

For many years I have been the victim of one variety of ideologist after another.

I expect that the reason there are so many ideologues is part and parcel of the psychologically decadent aspect of Modernity. One does not approach a person as a human being any more, to find out what does or doesn’t make them tick. Processes of Modernity (especially industrialism and its machinelike processes) have habituated us towards abstracting our sense of an “identity” as well as a moral lable to apply to others without so much as engaging with them beyond a cursory nod.

Those afflicted with this kind of Modernist thinking — and they are the majority — will tend to attack first, without really communicating, and without even realising that communication is necessary for human beings. (If you call them on the fact that they are not actually communicating at all, but are merely playing the role of ideologists in a mechanical fashion, they will not understand what you are getting at.)

So I was attacked by those who thought they were the reeducating me to my benefit. And I was continuously attacked by those who thought they were conservatives. Then I was attacked from behind by those who thought that they were social egalitarians and unionists, but who were heavily into identity politics and didn’t like people from Africa. Then I was attacked again — much more ferociously this time — by those who throught they were being evangelical. These attacks seem to have been never ending.

I will probably be attacked by those who view themselves as postmodern and liberals until the day I die.

And so it is and so it goes.  The capacity for any sort of communication falls by the wayside. But nobody realises this BECAUSE they all have morality on their side!

false sickness; false solution!

We were in a canteen area. It looked like the Fire Brigades restaurant where I used to work.

A snake was slithering under some chairs which had been placed around the walls of the room. My brother reached to catch it in the proper way, grabbing it just beneath the head and further down. It whipped around and bit him. I had to find a doctor to treat the snakebite but it was late. I rang the military hospital. I was on the phone. “What kind of snake was it?” I asked those around me.

A fake cobra. “He’s been bitten by a fake cobra,” I announced with all solemnity.

Then I got through to somebody in the marine corps. We marched back to the location. Just as I was entering the door, an army major grabbed me and said I should go with him. “I have to go with the doctor!” I said. It was a clear case of necessity and following the law of rank. I walked after the “doctor” whose face had molded into a pious look for he had commenced to pray.

The savage, Lacan and shamanism

From Lacan (but actually from Wikipedia):

—The pervert [is one who] disavows castration; he perceives that the mother lacks the phallus, and at the same time refuses to
accept the reality of this traumatic perception.

 A “pervert” in Lacanian terms is clearly someone who may well be culturally Japanese, for he or she holds that  ”nature” still has meaning, relevance and, indeed potency.
Such “a pervert” (in my terms, a shaman) engages with that meaning and potency in nature in a shamanistic fashion, which is deemed “perverse” by the Judeo-Christian ideological establishment defined by Freud (Judaism) and Lacan (Catholicism).
Judeo-Christianity, a distinctly Western way of structuring thought, opposes and pathologizes naturalistic sensibilities, whilst maintaining that “castration” ought to be accepted as defining sanity.

A SAVAGE, EARNESTLY IN SEARCH OF CULTURE:

Marechera sayeth:

To be able to read and write is [...] only the first downward step towards the first circle where black fires rage inconsumably. Candide’s experience of the world is the nearest we can get to the series of cerebral shocks which await the savage who is earnestly in search of culture. ‘There is nothing here but illusion, and one calamity after another.’ The experience is not unlike that of one organism living on and at the expense of another. (p 33, The Black Insider).

What, though, is the “organism” that lives on at the expense of another, if not “civilisation” that lives on at the expense of our innocence and our naive “savagery”?

According to what I have just read this morning about Lacan:

‘Castration’ [...] is the moment at which we become human beings, for the Law makes us ‘parle-etre’ or speaking beings. Language from then on structures our desires: language comprises the Symbolic Order. We figuratively must ‘be told’ what we feel and think through the big Other, the arbitrarily and socially-constructed matrix of words, which is the active functioning of the Symbolic Order.

Reading and writing are strong motifs of Civilisation and of being civilised. In European civilisation (such as the France of Lacan), “language” itself stands for the term ‘civilisation’ — probably because to speak is to give one’s obeisance to the social necessities of one’s existence as commanded by some complex dominating structure of power or ideological hegemony. In African societies, however, it is possible that “language” has some equivalence to nature, rather than being totally determined by the history of civilisation itself. For Marechera, then, it is not ‘language’ but reading and writing which contradict one’s natural state of being and put one in the outer circle of Dante’s Inferno.


ON GENDER & LACAN

I read that Lacan considers that males are those whose desires are determined by seeking power through acquiring. Women are those whose desires are determined by seeking power through a mode of being.

Modes of being and acquiring are both features of lack — since coming to be civilised (and hence human) and coming to be castrated are the same thing, both caused by a sense of lack (which can be read as a deficiency in our emotional — and no doubt economic — independence as isolated, non-social organisms). Becoming civilised, then, does actually imply a calamity — castration! (that is — to be “civilised” one must accept one’s absolute dependency on others, paying the price that is required: that is, sucking up to dominant orders who promise to run things ‘in our best interests’).

Lacan holds that society turns us into “men” or “women” depending on the exact manner of the boomeranging of our desires (which can go in only two possible directions when we are still children). What about the resolute savage, though? Is there not a third direction for our desires ?

If one is already born into a late form of civilisation, one could say desire boomerangs off the mother, due to her limitations to fulfil one’s every wish. Perhaps even if one is originatively savage (which is to say that one already lives beyond the limiting structures of the bourgeois nuclear family, which would restrict a child’s immediate options for being powerful to what would be approved by mummy and daddy), desire necessarily boomerangs off the mother to other sources of interest. Yet, the savage’s desire boomerangs on to the immediately fascinating aspects of the natural environment, which are imbued with animistic powers.

The savage, henceforth, finds limitless fascination in the natural environment and with regard to the “adventures” it offers. It is as if the savage child exchanges one teat — a female human teat — for another. He or she finally embraces their true destiny — which is to emotionally feast on the abundant pleasures offered by the natural landscape.

He will continue to face life with joyful abandon — unless inducted into reading and writing. These represent calamity as they stem from a European hegemony of culture, which (given that this represents “civilisation” itself) requires one to be castrated.

Since the above is the normative dynamic of civilisation in relation to nature (the force of one necessarily castrates the pleasure of the other — only more so than perhaps thought, because the former is also a hegemony) — one wonders why, under any circumstances, “the savage” should be “earnestly in search of culture.” As I have said, the natural situation of the savage is definitively NOT one of lack — which should therefore preclude such seeking.

Why is this savage “earnestly seeking” culture? — Perhaps because nature has already been taken away from him, in his particular instance. In any case, the more he seeks, the more he lets go of the possibility of returning to nature, and to its consolations. Thus he faces one calamity after the other, being aware of what he has left behind, but being unable to return to it — whilst falling more and more into the centre of hell in his abject search for “culture”.